my bday & xmas

thank you xin rong ( Mei ) Celebrate me my early , & actual bday love u.... thank you for giving me so much ice cream ah -.-" but ok quite nice ......
thank you for u for all de treat ...... i will enjoy it....
hope nxt yrs i can celebrate with u & my jie & di also.........

during xmas i was very happy pei mei watch movie & quite fun ........ althought she very sleepy:(

Pls i wish her body condition get well & rest well... pls nth happen to her or else i will quite sad & sad......

so pls i wana her body get will & go out tgt & having joke & fun.....

haixz this yrs bday okok.... only i dont know y my mood had so no idea haixz............

my study haixz but i will try my best ^.^

Emo Xiao T.H.
 Happy xiao th

6/12/12

6/12/12

Meet Mei watch movie at vivo city, the show quite nice.... & can pei her watch:) 

After that walk walk fix her spec then eat dinner with her...

I was happy that see fireworks with her & I see her so happy too.... Wish her can Everytime happy & smile ok Liao

Wish her always stay strong & happy..... This is my only wish ok already.

Exam coming next week Liao.... Wish I can pass:) quite tired my body don't feel like studying at all don't know y.

Haixz never mind I will try my best

Jy th

Xiao th

Not knw what title wana put make it be ba

Wish Mei Mei take care herself & hope she can recover fast...

I very worry her when see her getting unwell...:( I only don't know how to tc her when I dk how I think I useless can't help her solve her prob & I very sad that sometime I like a knife in my heart very pain haixz I very upsad feel like giving up already

I only wish is wish her get well & I will try my best to let her happy & wish her exam can pass ok Liao......

I don't knw what happen to my friend all like getting cold to me le.... Haixz think I use to it liao to alone:( haixz all treat me cold even my close to me one also start to get cold to me le haixz.......

Chest start pain again randomly haixz never mind let it be I already use to it Liao if my time really come then let it be ba....

Nightmare from last 6 weeks till now same dream happen & happen again

Mayb is dec or near my birthday?

Wish my Mei (Xr) will take care her health no matter what.... Wish her exam can pass & wish her have a good happiness to her....

I don't knw y my heart turn sour & sad 

I see her happy then I happy Liao IMy Mei & all of u

Emo Xiao th

23/10/12

haixz seem my parents dont beileve what i say i giv up le liao i feel like abit out & useless wana cry & emoing myself.....
1st is my bro keep on lend $ from me :( that i dont have....
2nd is i keep on lending sis money & delay for return....
3rd is i pei mei was very happy.... but sad is keep on use her $ to eat & etc i feel so bad....
i like own many ppl sia.... if very uneasy sia...... i already sad wana cry liao keep on cant sleep & body keep on weak:(
4th is my sch thing. no friends to talk to & etc haixz i haixz dont wan talk liao no ppl seem understand me...
feel like start to keep thing between myself instead to other ppl liao..... i see wana say or not ba.

This few days pei mei mei eat walk pei her shopping i was very happy & abit sad when she abit unhappy i feel so use_ _ _ _ dont know how to an wei her :x haixz

I wish mei can take care herself & wish can pei me tgt work haixz...

Wish all my friend & sis , bro all happy ok liao......

to be continue

emo, sad T.H.

i feel so sad la....who can help me........... think no ba?

19/10/12

My body getting weaker & weaker  le I had no idea.....

Is my body fault I got take care my self dk y my body start weak since 5 week ago getting weaker & weaker le.

Very lonely Liao almost everydays no friend wana talk to me .... Now they start spilt Liao cause wana Tok to them is hard Sia..... Wana cry & sad forget it . Sch always alone no ppl . Don't feel like make friend. I already no mood Liao sad. 

Emo sad th

30/9/12

This is a first time I take neoprint with Mei I love u
Wish u can take care urself & both my Jie & Mei bday at oct im sorry that I no $ to celebrate with u all haixz.....:(
Wish Jie her wish come truth
Wish Mei get wish come truth & take care herself & wish her a super happy enjoy day for the day I pary hard for her.....

Gonna start sch soon gonna b alone with my friends again haixz sob

Take care my both Sis miss u all & di also

Xiao th

25-9-12

I'm such a useless guy see Mei Mei unhappy & sad don't know to to help her:( this yrs i totally no time management at all cause I very stress family :( i gomna giv up soon:(

My common test wish can pass I don't wana stay 6 month:(
Miss Mei ever & sis & friend

Call friend promise me help me in de end nb haixz gonna giv up

Lonely & emo & sad th

HaixZ

Why my life suk my aunt & my dad compare my bro again.... Wa Lou I feel like dieing seh fk my life fkfkfk All is about study:( I know I stupid la cnt study but I can go poly ma is already happy Liao haixz nvm ur choice to choose my fate.

Why i so stupid all the thing crash to me :( fk la wana enjoy holiday with Mei Mei de. Y end out like that haixz I miss u. Wish can with u. I'm sorry that I sometime bully u & make u angry. & is my fault that make u sad or moody. Sometime see u moody wana make u smile I dk what to do I such a suk bro . Sad sad boy boy

Wish today plan is pei Mei Mei watch movie haixz she can't watch horry   Movie haixz such a bad kor kor. But wana watch that show with Mei Mei haixz find not everyone fault is my fault & always my fault 

Sad & emo th

6-9-12

Morning call Mei then she 6 plus suddenly not well I was worry her then myself now. I can say she mine everything wana see her get well then I can don't worry le.

I was worry abt my exam & very stress I pray I can pass.

I keep on crying don't know for something that the thing well happen again 3 yrs ago from the gate of hell

:( pretty worry wish is I wan everyone stay health ok le then I can don't worry for nth le. 

The more I sleep the more I tired the less I sleep I nt well. Haixz

27_8_12 to 19_8_12

27-8-12 > Was very happy watch movie with my mei & we was very fun watching & good that she is happy. But im sad cause she nv go lesson scare she kenna debar wish no. then we go watch movie at tampines. after movie we go eat aijisan then i relise that my hp lost -.-" i dam worry what to do nv sleep haixz & thanks mei company me make a police report & etc.
I feel sorry cause kenna let her scold by her mom T.T I feel uneasy. cause is my fault that i lost my dam phone. sorry that u got a careless kor kor T.T haixz....................... but thanks mei company me.

27-8 to 28-8 > i nv sleep cause worry my phone almost de whole night nv sleep haixz.......
nvm then morning i go visit my mei then got 2 officer call me they say help me find my hp then i was happy abit they help me but i nv put any hope cause my phone hjaixz i very sad scare kenna dad scold haixz... etc dont wan say le. go d.g. eat sweensens as dinner.

today - morning wake up headache + pain. then nvm go ite on de way i heard a super good news that my hp was found ^.^ I DAM happy seh. then i collect le. i was happy. then eat dinner time dad call say 2 officer come my house ard noon say my phone found le. then furning dinner time dad call me scold me say u lost ur phone ah? & u better dont lose ur iphone hor or else i dont let u use. then i call my dad again wen walking home say i tell him a lies say i lost htc phone not iphone. haixz..... keep on lie my dad i start uneasy liao cause i scare he scold me. cause i very stress by my dad & bro haixz.... & everything....

My wish is my family having good health , Wish my jie & di good luck for everything.
Wish my mei gets well soon for her body worry her :( I wish she will b ok. miss her.


Xiao emo T.H.
crying on last mon to tue no mood. wed happy.

24/8/12

Long time nv update le quite bz.....
Exam over le now left my business diploma
Miss my Mei a lot wish she take care no matter what pray for ur healthy no matter what must stay strong nv giv up.... Dont knw what to write le my only wish is I can pass my diploma :(





Xiao th emo

Today

Today sleep a lot of time same nightmare again &again haixz forget it Liao wana find ppl to talk also can't nvm
Gonna keep it in myself in de darkness ba

Later gonna sleep again if cnt wake up mayb caught by them nightmare again ba this yrs think is de worst one

Xiao emo th

12 -8-12

I wana cry for today I really cannot handel my thing Liao exam coming no ppl wan tgt study with me plus my bro like tht nvm Liao I gonna crazy le..... Wana find ppl lend me a shoulder cry nvm leave me alone ba this few days I gotter .....

Xiao emo th
Crying

Emotion post write in sentence

😢😖😭😲💔😨😣💦☔👻✂🚬💰🔫🏧✈🇯🇵🇰🇷🆒♿🕛🕐🕑🕒🕓🕔🕕🕖🕗🕘🕙🕚
Who ever understand what I thinking then guess & tell me
Is a random emotion but sentence got sort of link slowly figure out ba

Random

5-8-12 

Miss my Mei I see her happy when I see her profile I long time nv see her smile le wish can see her Everytime happy & with her & wish cn Everytime sleep with her I lucky let her sleep when she sleep is really cute 

7-8-12 

Unwell de me still go sch haixz wish wana die I fking stress le no ppl care me I wana cry le I almost at night crying cause worry my dear sis haixz I wish I can stead with her but nvm I super sad wana kill myself to the heart keep on nightmare till cnt sleep much :( super haixz I wish Xin rong was beside me sleep 

Miss u too much.

Random mood for today

I very sad for something no ppl seem know me well nvm I'm very my heart sometime random upsad & hurt don't knw y

I still miss u. As a bro or what. Nvm I already given up for everything I gonna giv up my life soon or after if I cnt solve my family thing. All cause of de $ dad & bro I fking tired of this Liao la.... $ here $ ther forget it u all wan chase me out or say I stupid up to u Liao I don't care le. I wish I nt born here then no trouble & stress le. Stress in de max don't wan to show ppl. U all dk wad I feel nvm I was crying sometime in my dream & having nightmare more often Liao look like nvn u all slowly figure it out I don't say much le... I think I had no time to write le ba or don't feel like writing le

Emoing th night crying 

9-7-12

Today is my suk day every thing nv do well & cause my Mei trouble ask her help me abt my hmw & night I cause her scare is my fault I'm sorry let u scare u had a bad kor kor nb understand u much & u got a lazy & stupid kor tht dun know how to do work & nv do his hmw sometimes cause he had no idea what he thinking this few days & wish his exam can pass but dun think so cause he had a slow bain that not working Everytime He also dun knw y his heart sometime pain for nth mayb sense something not right & his near by also. I wish that Mei pls take care urself no matter what sad or what ur life must go On. My back getting pain & more pain I only scare 1 day if I cnt walk I cnt pei u cause cannot hold ur hand cannot hug u & etc I feel like crying cause I only scare 1 day will happen. My last night dream is abt that. Then u leave me. I was quite sad & emo very upsad & heart pain I scare I lose u. I wan u always with me. I wish I can. I wan to see u everyday see u smile not sad& emoing Miss u Mei Xiao th crying for something

1-7-12

I really care a gal that I really care her much dun wan let her upsad or unhappy by someone like me . I still not understand her well & I her bad kor tht keep on let her unhappy I am SORRY Im sorry that nv trust u cause my feeling is hurt cause is something no right & is hurt hurt hurt me I just feel like nv I really wana fall a part le. God I just stay with her side no matter what. I think I myself I forever lonely but from outside I try not to show ba I dw ppl worry especially her. I wish her get well & happy days dw her have a bad thing I just wan her happy tht all I wish I can protect her no matter what but nvm wana share my prob also nvm she not gonna say out same to me. I will forever lock my feeling inside myself no matter what I dw her worry . I miss u Think I only b ur bro after all :( Xiao emo th ( crying ) again for the night for nth I just wan to b ur side

30/6/12

I'm sorry that u got a useless kor that can't help u much If I really wan to have a relationship with u . I dun knw u accept or nt If u accept I cnt cause I really dun wan ppl say u got a useless bf cnt help u & I feel sorry that I cant help u solve thing when u r upsad I wana u b my gf Nvm I also knw tht u haven rdy a new relationship yet if yes u cnt forget ur past I know u still cnt forget him what he did to u Is hurt me that I cnt make u happy Mostly I like make u upsad I just wish only 1 wish I wan to stay with u no matter sad or unhappy I just wana b with u. U r my only gal that wan love but cannot love..... Xiao emo th ( crying )

Today27/6/12

I wana cry le I unwell I wan ppl pei me haixz I wana cry I wish my Mei will b wif me I really miss her & I wana see her more before I I wana go out wif her. I wana cry is y u sometimes so cold to me I really feel left out by u Nvm since already use to b a lonely life when u nt with me I very upsad This few days I going to start b lonely or emo dun stop cause u nt wif me & I really cnt take it u not with me I really miss u. I dun knw hw u feel to me My emotion is like weather I feel like crying my stress cnt take it le I feel like I wana nvm.... Is sad I fail 1 of my modual let my mood totally change &dun feel Study I very stupid :( Emo th wana cry only

Today

Haixz I'm such a useless ppl. That I cnt help my Mei to solve keep on let her keep thing by herself nv say out I feel like I very upsad see her like tht I super upsad wana emo.
When I wan to care her she seem like dw me I very de pain .
Mei I tell u nv believe urself means u nv believe ppl also cause u already haizz
I always beileve in u try to dun let u sad but I still let u sad I'm such a useless kor kor then ya
I really love u too much I just wan to b ur. Haizz think not possible ba cause u still haven forget him I think I wana let u forget him cause he hurt u too much I just wan to b ur side forever I dc u my Sis or gf I just wana stay wif u. To see u happy I think I fail
But u dun forget u sad or unhappy I will always wif u no matter what .

If I got any unhappy thing I think is nt de timing ask u to Tok to me.
Cause I only a sad boy wana b alone
I though u will company me I thought u will change my lonely life I think nah ba.

No matter wad pls tc & rest well
I miss u super much wana to hug u & dun let go

Xiao emo lonely
Is crying while typing this blog

11_6_12

i very worry my dear mei.... keep on kena nightmare....
i wish her get ride of it & have a nice sleep....
i dun mind de nightmare to me i just wana her sleep well i dw her get weak.....
i gonna crazy liao..... $_$ prob still haven solve yet. i wana cry liao la....... f my life...........

I such a useless kor kor that cnt solve her prob when she got prob..... just only see her like tht is hurt me......
i will pray her b ok...... i dw her sad........i wan her stay happy.....
haixz..... i think i cnt do it....... T.T
my body say de truth i abit cnt take it le. de stress still inside me nv release yet.....
i gonna start stm liao.... i scare i & her happiness gone T.T
i scare i will forget her but no............
i wish i cn see her happy ok le........

GOD PLS HELP ME TC MY FAMILY , MY GOD SIS , MEI, DI. & my some of de friend.....
 i wish them all healthy & stay happy .....
my mei also.....
imy.
ihy
ily

XiaoT.H. is ( _ _ _ )

5-6-12 & 6-6-12

5-6-12 : haixz today test really cant make it le..... i wana cry le...... i onli for 1 paper i can do.....
then todae paper i cnt do haixz i very upsad.....
thur paper i also cnt do cause no ppl teach me haixz.... haixz wana sob....
ok i plan liao if my common test i 2 paper i cnt do hor i gonna focus my business dipolma liao i really no choice......
miss my mei..... very much....
wana hug her forever......
love her....
i wish her pls tc....
& wish her exam can pass smoothly.......

Xiao t.h.
Emo , sad

4/6/12

Today exam haixz i had no idea i can pass or nt :(  cause i last min study.... & my chest is pain in de morning dun know y....
& i miss her...... i wish her pls tc & rest well... & wish her exam jia u...
sry again let u worry le.....
:c
miss u.... pls tc.....

if ppl still say me or everything bang to me i gonna mad sia....
wana cry but cnt.....

XiaoT.H.
wana cry T.T
but cnt

fk my friend & bro la

WTF my exam in de corner liao still dun understand me... fk la i no $ liao i still try to help u slove for ur thing. f la. i wana cry la.... u think i wan to help....

1) ppl no $ then lend from me. ok fine....
2) ppl so call good bro ah. when i no $ Fk off la no $ i know u all got only dun wan lend. i fking stress u all know..... i wana cry sia......
stupid me. stupid............ nxt time i see my mood liao.........

Xiao T.H.
Stupid & weak body.

3/6/12

today i make a 3 Big mistake that i nv make to let her hurt & sad :c
1) i nv hold her well in de end she go knock de wall :(
2) i cry again then let her sad & having heart pain
3) I shld not yell at her....
Just want to say sorry 99999999 X sorry i wrong....
i try to change not to yell or make u le........
is a good thing that i meet u cause u let me change alot.
& miss u ....
sorry that i make u cry is my fault.... i wont let it happen again......
i really miss u. Pls dun leave me no matter what.
i love u too....
Good luck on ur test & dun giv up i beileve u can do it...
& pls take care urself no matter what.
eat ur meal also & sleep early.

I will promise u that i will try my best to take care myself no matter what.

Xiao T.H.
Sad & sad. T.T.

30-5-12

Today very happy that I see her happy can le... This few days I very sad I had no idea That y mayb my family today my bro wan ask me to ask my dad that to lend $500 haixz how I ask sia... Wan I Kennan scold or what.... Haiix I dun know what to do I wana b crazy Liao I wana cry also can't cause I see her happy I also happy le. I so wana crazy sia . I wan her focus exam & take care herself no matter what & rest early. I really miss her no matter what. I wan to with her forever sob. Last few days I had no idea I got lots of bad dream I dun wan tell anyone... Forever miss u Mei I wish u get well & wish all ur unhappiness & happiness. Say Thing to me I dun wan u stress sia. Love u forever ....

Fuk my life la

Test I can't do well dun know what happen to me Hais fk myself la all blame me... Nb fuk la.... Ppl also Not happy when I remind them bring multimeter then his friend Kennan ban de locker also my fault . I wan cry Liao la... Today after sch do hmw then ask my friend teach me in de end he say dun knw fk myself la... Ok la all blame me la.... I wan cry Liao.... Wan find ppl tok also cnt find.... Fk la fine I shld keep myself.... Mei I wish u ok & i wish u everything goes well... & pls rest well & takecare... Miss u... Upsad emo T.H. Crying

Random

This few days I very worry my Mei health I wish her get well soon & no stress & no trouble also. Wish her get well & wish her exam good luck all the best. I beileve u can do it. Sorry that I sometimes cause u trouble or what I'm sorry about it. I just wan u smile no matter what. Wish u happy ok le Tc my Mei Love u , hugs u

1_5_12

My memory start to fade off soon le.... dun know y keep on forget thing & lazyniess come again haixz..... i very hate myself.......
I see my dear mei happy i ok le...... i onli scare 1day i forget her how.... but cant..... cause i love her very much.....
i wana cry cant
i wan to stay strong no matter what....... cause i miss her..... & worry her cause i love her.... I Wish her get well no matter what ok le.....l
love u ... imy,iwwu forever......
IWHU

Xiao emo t.h.

last few days , week or month

This few day i got happy & sad cause miss someone alot hat is my mei........
she always wif me no matter wad.... but i abit useless cause cnt protect her keep on let her worry T.T i quite sad..... i mayb already lost my friend liao tht one i hack care.......
my miss my mei..... love alot dun know y?
i wish her healthy gets well & her sleepness also & eat plus take care.... i dun wan her fall sick or wad....
god pls let her well no matter wad.....
i promise u mei that i will take care myself but u also ok??
ILU
IMY
IWSWU
IWEWU

Pls take my dearest  mei.....

love u....

Xiao T.H.

11_4_12

today company my bro for his case he settle le... everything mayb start to get wel....
now is my turn.
i very tired this few days cause of poly admin hting & eytc i will quite sad.... nvm i gonna forget it....... tired le... wish my mei get well soon & no matter wad i wish i cn wif her.... love her.....

Xiao T.H.Emo

unwell

my days think not much.... keep on heard something tht i dun wan to heard..... die liao keep on imaging something...... die liao eh........ hand still haven recover............ not enff rest cause too much stress at me..... gonna die liao.... this is my 1st step.......... of my dead life.........
no friend to tok to fine............. die liao.......... flu & stomach & hand & i bit cnt walk.......... haixz

sick t.h. emoing.......

unless T.H.

i super useless to settle thing..... now ppl say i giv 2 face ok fine lor say me like tht....... ok fine....... nvm i go die better u happy la.......... i lost my wallet u so call bro nv care much go die la....... f off la stupid..... y i must care u soo much when u nv care me........ say u got family prob.... i dun hab la........... f off la////// i f all the world la.... all hate me......... ok i pefer emo better then wif friend ...... i dun hab best friend or bro liao............ i trust u all. u all dun trust me.... go die............ i very sad u sae me like tht .... ok fine....

i wana cry..........

i very useless tht see my mei see me like tht.... i cnt help i very sad.... stupid boy nv care near me onli care friend then her if friend got prob..... need to solve then in de end ppl say me like tht..... fine ...... i go cry le........... this few days unwelll..................... sry to let my mei to worry even she sick i also dun know........... i suck a useless kor kor...........

wana cry de T.H. & gonna emo liao

9_4_12

today is my fking unless day.........
1) having some fight wif my dad at de morning......... abt de poly thing....
2) poly admin thing nv pay sch fee :(
3) Lost my wallet Wa f la stupid & careless Guys in the whole world....
4) make mei cry & let her piss off cause i using my anger to her :( sry mei cause i not in de good mood mei sry to let u cry & i cry.... + dun know y my other self suddenly come out for nth when i get weak or wad.... or crazy.....
5) bro wan to borrow $$ from me.....
6) scare my dad scold like shit then i call him when i reach home ya he scold me think when he come back he confirm scold again....
7) I gonna crazy anytime.... my phone dun like me the whold world dun like me.....
8) i ask friend borrow $ from me fine he say i got so much meh siao.... i know liao fine.... i msg him i lost my wallet he like nv care me.... wad kind of bro is tht........ nv concer me......... i hate them & myself stupid y care them so much if ppl nv care u ....
9) i scare 1 day i gone crazy..... my bro call me he wed need $ 260 for help for wed final.... i dun know..... i ask my dad to help he say no... cause i go poly & my fee so ex & etc y help him let him go J _ _ _ sia... i heard le abit sad & haixz nvm bro i will try my best to help u if dad dun wan help u..... cause i love u... althought u dun love me or wad? i like a atm to u or wad dun know..... sometimes i also hate u y u leave me alone let me handal the whole family prob to me + ur prob.... u think i wont turn crazy ah........ i soom or later sia............... i wana cry.......... u know.... cause of no ppl to tok to... toking to 4 wall instead of u wana solve prob but cnt..... everything all find me in 1 time i cnt take it...... i really cnt take it........... i gonna die soon liao .... if i cnt take it...
who can help me....... PLS AH i wan tok find ppl to tok to onli my mei........ love her alot alot alot sia...... always company me.... I wish her gets well soon.... i dun wan she something happen.... cause i lve her... i dun wan her get pain........
10 ) what shld i do now can anyone guide me? i dun know. i still unwell still handel lots of stres........... i love it.... thanks to my family + my friend..... hate them i wana b alone but cnt cause of my mei mei i dun wan emo.... cause i love her........... miss her........
11) i try to stay strong no matter wad.... cause i promise her.... tht i will stay strong.........

Xiao T.H. Is crying & soon crazy if no ppl to tok to... + etc......

my fault

8_4_12

today very fun wif mei cause i can see her ^.^ love her hug her...... kiss her...... watch movie wif her.... althought i abit unwelll but ya...... sry mei today T.T tht i wad u .... sry........ but i wish u get welll & dun let other stranger to touch u or wad i will kill them.... cause i love u ..... dun wan u wad happen to u .... love u who ever giv u make trouble to u is making me trouble me too.... so anything u got trouble or any problem pls tell me...

Xiao T.H.

unwell

This few days getting weaker & weaker during night..... i dun know y?
i miss my mei...... i dun know y 1 day nv see her i will feel uneasy.... isit _ _ _ _ in _ _ _ _ ? dun know..... i miss her..... i wish her get well & her trouble gone no matter wad........
mayb or few days later my condition getting worst i mayb not telling anyone i dun wan ppl worry :)
sick boy must stay stong no matter wad............ If i study poly right i gonna focus 2 dip i dun know i cn do it or nt..... no ppl push me :( i wana cry liao..... if 1 day i turn out crazy i will stright _ _ _ ba?? mayb no........


Xia0 emo T.H. Wana cry loud

6_4_12

Today go hiking very fun only rain :(
& also thinking i shld go poly or no.... 60% yes.........
i dk also..... my brian still nt sure........

stupid me....... slow learner me & emoing me......

no friend ever....... sometimes care for me sometimes make fun of me sometime nv care for me if i care them + if got any prob i come for u.... u all got come for me? i now thinking...... see todae weather is crying i also ba...... cause feel like........

play pool wif friend at csc quite fun.... now gonna no idea..... headache & unwell i still company them...... haixz stupid body.....

Emo & Sad & lonely T.H.

5_4_12 ( Confuess )

Thanks mei to company me go np to take my enroll poly thing... love her.... & sry tht nv let u see doc i know u unwell i still ask u pei me... I very sorry..... i feel sry abt it..... mei i wish all ur trouble cn tell me no matter wad love u forever..... if u not gonna tell me ur matter & tgt solve up i not gonna tell my prob any more not even here onli my heart. If u nv tell me......

Ok here a prob for my confuess

I dun know i wan go ns or poly + i worry alot of things....
1) family / Friends & dear ( mei )
2) study or NS
3) money prob...

1a) I thinking if i go ns right i scare my dad wont giv me allowance for study + de fee very high & etc
2a) If i study right i totally focus 2 dipoma sia 1 is my business private dipoma & Electrical Dipoma I only scare i cnt crop & i scare i can study 1 & if i got poly right i scare i will fail & etc.... +etc..... i very confuess sia..... + i'm de slow T.T
3a ) if i keep on go out with my friend so call brother ah eat ex thing & etc i gonna die + etc + my real bro will say need $$ if he nt enff & etc....

Say de truth..... when i pri sch i dun know y i cnt trust ppl so much onli my family & my trust friend & my mei.... cause ireally trust them no matter wad......
Cause last time i kenna back stable by ppl who back stable me then tht right i hardly trust ppl & etc i scare the history will happen again + etc i now very confuess sia... i wana cry.... Shld i tell or no i also dun know
I wish ppl will giv me advice sia no matter wad i gona lost my way soon.... i cnt take it anymore i wana cry sia......
If my dad say 1 word decided myself i gonna b crazy & not gonna tok to ppl liao cause everything is me me me me me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wana cry........ how ah............ how ah...................................... feel like dieing sia.... but cnt cause i got my dear mei tht i trust her alot... love her mei.... sry nv tell u my prob cause very hard to solve tht right i gonna crazy....
if i 1day crazy pls try to stop me if i go wrong way cause i trust alot no matter wad... love u....

After reading this pls dun cry...... cause i love u very mnuch....


Xiao emo T.H. Wana cry & crazy if cnt take much stress......

4_4_12

i go sch wif my mei eat breakfast is was raining heavly haixz poor mei so cold i hug hug u .... after tht we in sch go do duty after tht we go indoor sport hall see de panel of led wa..... then we 2 having stomach pain & etc dk how haixz...... miss her alot sia . wish can kiss her & hug her......
After tht we go tampines eat ajisen after tht bus to csm.
Wish her get well soon....... love her forever ^.^

3_4_12

Today go sp wif friend wa sei i dam angry sia... all nv tell me their plan then they thought they know wa kou wad kind of friend is tht sian sia. nvm i already use to it le........
today go study wif my mei ok la onli she late then i emoing till nth to do see fb & etc..... after study we eat lunch after tht eat ice cream then watch movie wa........... today watch movie wif her vry funny & not fair she found my weakness zzzzzzzzzz haixz kenna bully haixz then overall watch wif her i very happy ^.^ love her hug hug ^.^

I Wish her sta happy ever after love her.... pls tc ^.^ no matter wad ok......

ytd sleep onli 6 hrs sia......'
mayb today also ba.........

i also dun wan let my mei worry tht i unwell.... dun wan to let her know dun wan let her worry cause later she worry ^/^ ok i tell at blog ba..... my heart or lung pain abit + stomach pain or gastric pain whole body la... i dun know y..... mayb use to it angry liao till bo mood -.-""

I Wish my mei get well soon for her cough & her flu no matter wad....God ok pls help me tc her no matter wad....

Xiao T.H.

2_4_12

Today morning i got some mood for thing... after event. i dun know y i feel sad suddenly mayb ppl bluff me or wad shit T.T i very sad today tht ppl backstabe me + friend keep on make me for nth..... when i really dun hab de mood..........
i wan cry also cannot.... today i dun know wad happen to my mei she seem got things hide from me nvm if she dun tell me i dun wan force her ba....
today is my fault to make her. We today like nv tok much like got a wall to block like tht.
mei today sry for cold to u..... i also know u no mood for ur case so dun wan ask u much.
when u ok then tell me everything ba..... I wish u get well soon no matter wad. I just wan see u smile onli not sad ...... i dun mind ur trouble is my trouble.... cause i love u......... pls tc no matter wad..... love you forever......

Sad & emo Xiao T.H.

2_4_12

unwell today dun know y... mayb is morning ba...........
going sch soon...... ytd cry & sleep :( i wish my mei get well soon no matter wad & hope todae nth happen to her
pls tc mei love u & miss u.......
today is a cold weather not suit for me :( wana cry again if rain.........
my exam haixz i nv score well
i very stupid that i nv study hard my lazyniess cause me sia :( i wana cry tonight again........
see ya

Sad T.H.

my mood

this few day i think i gonna emo ba.... cause alot of my thing i cnt control & is out of control till i keep on going out. cause i worry my bro case & my parent's haixz........... i already sad liao. if i treat my so call friend as bro hor i dun think they will care me much cause if i care them then i got de feeling they nv care me at all i already learn my lesson le Y. Y i do this again & again all is my so call friend as a bro gt R & S prob i company him wad my reply. nth i very sad. & i wan find ppl o tok to also cnt. i very stress wana burst le la..... i wana tell my mei mei but cnt she got her own trouble & problem i dun wan let her wry so nv intend to tell her cause reason de.........
i also sometime cnt sleep well often wake up suddenly for sudden dun knw wad happen...... force myself sleep also cnt..... nvm. so no matter wad i emo or sad or happy i will hide it from myself ba..... nv tell ppl ..........

Think i gonna mia for awhile le... since i like causing ppl bad luk cause of my mood tht right ........ i will stay at home to tok to myself better........

I wish my mei gets well soon

nightxz love her ever.....

Xiao emo T.H.

today very fun

Today very fun wif my mei mei company her go out walk walk & etc.....
my dear mei mei ah no matter wad i always wif u .... i dun wan let u wry & having sick.... cause i really love u .
Say de truth i nv happy long ago le since think u r the only mei & some of my friend let me happy no matter wad. & tc.

i dun wan u what happen to u.

if i really got wish i wish u get well & no more emo & tell me all ur worry & trouble. dun worry to trouble me i love to lsten to ppl... so dun worrry.....

After seeing ur blog i feel like crying or got something hurt in my heart sia very pain dun know y....

Mei go out wif u i very happy.... If u really unwell or any trouble pls tell me then i wont worry much.....

now i like getting worry le cause u dun tell me as last time u promise me :( i very say.... i know u got something to hide wif me u dun wan say nvm i dun wan force u....... i gonna tc myself no matter wad,,,, love u.....

Sad & Emo T.H.

Love my friend & god sis ever after........... most is i love my mei mei alot cause she let me happy

Mei i tell u de truth....... before i met u i already having some weak body le cause is born on dec ba. dun worry i will stay strong.....

1_4_12

today apr fool day hope can fool ppl but didnt -.- lols........ hope my mei get well.......
i having some pain todae dk wad happen -.- haixz

haixz

I feel now dun know wad i wan to do.
Keep on thinking having enjoy dun wan study my private diploma ZzzzzzzzZ haixz i hate myself.....
This few days i not so well cause of my right hand since exam day..... I hate myself getting lazy & play game but i did not.....

My wish:
1 ) I Wish i can get well soon & my bro case hope he ok & my family they have a good healthy My mom get well soon when i go ns pls take gd care no matter wad. My dad if u tired wana sleep pls dun drive no matter wad. I love u all no matter wad.
2 ) My mei also pls take care & hope her all trouble & sickness or pain gone or wad. I only wish her to get well no matter wad. Love her.

I dun mind use my life or my energy to giv them cause i love them.
I very sad ah. friend getting further to me haixz wad i do sia. If i did wrong then i say sry. nvm i gonna emo no matter wad

now i thinking if one day i unwell or wad. who will care me? my best friend nv care me ba. say gd bro i already having cheat so call bro le say will b ther e wif me but didnt i wana cry wana to tok to ppl also cnt.

i very xin kuo ah i cnt tell ppl. i feel like knock wall or let god or death god take my life.

i very sad la. wana cry but cnt cry. All i did is wrong no correct. i treat some ppl gd they nv care when i make them then they angry. ok fine gonna sad forever no matter wad.

Xia0 L0nely.

I shld dead on my pri 6 or sec 2 bdae time le. but didn't :( :C >< T.T

30_3_12

I Wish my mei get well soon & todae when out wif him quite happy & sad is she not well nv tell me wana cry I Wish she ok no matter wad & no trouble ever after.

I dun mind his trouble & pain or sickness pass to me or half also can. I dun know she Xin kuo = pain I Wish her healthy get well no matter wad....

God ah pls Take good care of her no matter wad. as last time u promise me a few yrs ago if i got a few wish. I hope it will come truth. ^.^

Xiao emo T.H.

29_3_12

too long nv write my blog le....
this few days keep on bz & etc T.T
i was not well wake up then nvm etc for thur haixz... feel like sleepy or wad dun knw.
& i was alone at my sch audi there i heard something haixz such a unlucky day sob..... haixz nvm if the thing wan find me then come lor. i dun care much le....

hope i can get well soon & my mei mei also ^.^

Xiao emo T.T

12_3_12

this few days i feel so weak :( my hand dun knw wad happen... haixz.... bidy gonna unwell dam sad.... todae very happy go watch movie wif my mei she keep on laughing dun knw y -.- hahahaaxz....
i wish she get well soon dun hab any trouble for her i pray her get well soon...

i wish i cn b a caring kor kor ok le..... jia u mei.
if she got any pain i wish the pain giv me so she dun hab too much pain:) tc mei mei

emo & happy T.H.

my camp daes

I very Tired nt enff sleep keep on having bad feeling etc & my timing suk of some1? dun knw. haixz i very sad..... i very tired........ no ppl to tok to T.T hate ppl back stabe i also finding ppl to tok to .
when i see my friend vry unhappy or wad i try to talk to him & ok le. + now i wana if i got prob got any1 will come for me? i now wondering.
I love my mei tht care me i very happy. but haixz she also gt some personel thing so i dun wan talk much. as a kor i also dun knw how to help. as a kor i knw how to listen onli. & try to an wei her.
i hope this month over is over le
New yrs i gonna b happy n & hack care ppl liao....

sad

Pri sch we use b so call best friend ?
Sec sch u M.I.A for me for nth cause u fail ur psle & etc. Find u also no use -.-"
In ITE U suddenly call me play games + etc.
some more if u got some BGR prob i stay wif u whole night. u sad or pain i wif u.
now i also wana R u treating me As Best Friend or wad i wondering
then suddenly u msg me i also wana reply or nt but i also reply.
I think i gonna say Gd bye as a best friend or friend liao. We no more friend 4ever. cause say need u u will company me or etc u nv i cn see truth friend le. as u R NT GD Friend at all... gd bye.