5_4_12 ( Confuess )

Thanks mei to company me go np to take my enroll poly thing... love her.... & sry tht nv let u see doc i know u unwell i still ask u pei me... I very sorry..... i feel sry abt it..... mei i wish all ur trouble cn tell me no matter wad love u forever..... if u not gonna tell me ur matter & tgt solve up i not gonna tell my prob any more not even here onli my heart. If u nv tell me......

Ok here a prob for my confuess

I dun know i wan go ns or poly + i worry alot of things....
1) family / Friends & dear ( mei )
2) study or NS
3) money prob...

1a) I thinking if i go ns right i scare my dad wont giv me allowance for study + de fee very high & etc
2a) If i study right i totally focus 2 dipoma sia 1 is my business private dipoma & Electrical Dipoma I only scare i cnt crop & i scare i can study 1 & if i got poly right i scare i will fail & etc.... +etc..... i very confuess sia..... + i'm de slow T.T
3a ) if i keep on go out with my friend so call brother ah eat ex thing & etc i gonna die + etc + my real bro will say need $$ if he nt enff & etc....

Say de truth..... when i pri sch i dun know y i cnt trust ppl so much onli my family & my trust friend & my mei.... cause ireally trust them no matter wad......
Cause last time i kenna back stable by ppl who back stable me then tht right i hardly trust ppl & etc i scare the history will happen again + etc i now very confuess sia... i wana cry.... Shld i tell or no i also dun know
I wish ppl will giv me advice sia no matter wad i gona lost my way soon.... i cnt take it anymore i wana cry sia......
If my dad say 1 word decided myself i gonna b crazy & not gonna tok to ppl liao cause everything is me me me me me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wana cry........ how ah............ how ah...................................... feel like dieing sia.... but cnt cause i got my dear mei tht i trust her alot... love her mei.... sry nv tell u my prob cause very hard to solve tht right i gonna crazy....
if i 1day crazy pls try to stop me if i go wrong way cause i trust alot no matter wad... love u....

After reading this pls dun cry...... cause i love u very mnuch....


Xiao emo T.H. Wana cry & crazy if cnt take much stress......