4.8.13

I very guity very long Liao.

I very hate ppl to Tok abt pass Sia.

When I never did it ppl say yes then yes lor. I fking giv up liao. I'm very upsad le.

I had dk who am I Liao.

I wana cry I really wan find ppl to Tok. Who can Sia. God pls tell me what I do.

Never mind who am i I had already giv up.....

This few week

I can't sleep this few week cause I very  hate myself...

A few work can discribe me that is stupid , stupid & blur stupid.

I trust ppl like no body include stranger... Wtf to me right...

I only know the person not really well plus only Tok to him or her only.

Then suddenly he or she wan lend $ I lend.

Then will return.

In de end say I never lend wtf I'm so stupid . Why trust a stranger....  

Now I not gonna trust any stranger Liao. I need to understand & etc then I see how...

Fk la tong heng y u so stupid....

I now only trust is my family , my close friend , my sis and di only lia0

I will nv turst anyone that I don't knw you fking well.....

Hais.... I'm so stupid for everything,

I wana cry , I wana ppl knw my feeling. I need a ear that can see my problem. I really upsad. I feel like Tearing  apart soon or later....

Emo th

29/6/13

This few days , week, not feeling so good keep thinking something that is unnesscery and keep on not good. worry so many thing. till i gonna b crazy liao. i also dont know y i think those unesserary thing like abt my sch work , exam , & alot hais.... wana find ppl to tok to dont know who to find to..... hais. hide till cant take it le but still hide till i find a suitable ppl to tok to ba. is abt my dream from my age 16.:( is very horrbile :(. hais this cause my body unwell now i dont care much liao.

my bday & xmas

thank you xin rong ( Mei ) Celebrate me my early , & actual bday love u.... thank you for giving me so much ice cream ah -.-" but ok quite nice ......
thank you for u for all de treat ...... i will enjoy it....
hope nxt yrs i can celebrate with u & my jie & di also.........

during xmas i was very happy pei mei watch movie & quite fun ........ althought she very sleepy:(

Pls i wish her body condition get well & rest well... pls nth happen to her or else i will quite sad & sad......

so pls i wana her body get will & go out tgt & having joke & fun.....

haixz this yrs bday okok.... only i dont know y my mood had so no idea haixz............

my study haixz but i will try my best ^.^

Emo Xiao T.H.
 Happy xiao th

6/12/12

6/12/12

Meet Mei watch movie at vivo city, the show quite nice.... & can pei her watch:) 

After that walk walk fix her spec then eat dinner with her...

I was happy that see fireworks with her & I see her so happy too.... Wish her can Everytime happy & smile ok Liao

Wish her always stay strong & happy..... This is my only wish ok already.

Exam coming next week Liao.... Wish I can pass:) quite tired my body don't feel like studying at all don't know y.

Haixz never mind I will try my best

Jy th

Xiao th

Not knw what title wana put make it be ba

Wish Mei Mei take care herself & hope she can recover fast...

I very worry her when see her getting unwell...:( I only don't know how to tc her when I dk how I think I useless can't help her solve her prob & I very sad that sometime I like a knife in my heart very pain haixz I very upsad feel like giving up already

I only wish is wish her get well & I will try my best to let her happy & wish her exam can pass ok Liao......

I don't knw what happen to my friend all like getting cold to me le.... Haixz think I use to it liao to alone:( haixz all treat me cold even my close to me one also start to get cold to me le haixz.......

Chest start pain again randomly haixz never mind let it be I already use to it Liao if my time really come then let it be ba....

Nightmare from last 6 weeks till now same dream happen & happen again

Mayb is dec or near my birthday?

Wish my Mei (Xr) will take care her health no matter what.... Wish her exam can pass & wish her have a good happiness to her....

I don't knw y my heart turn sour & sad 

I see her happy then I happy Liao IMy Mei & all of u

Emo Xiao th

23/10/12

haixz seem my parents dont beileve what i say i giv up le liao i feel like abit out & useless wana cry & emoing myself.....
1st is my bro keep on lend $ from me :( that i dont have....
2nd is i keep on lending sis money & delay for return....
3rd is i pei mei was very happy.... but sad is keep on use her $ to eat & etc i feel so bad....
i like own many ppl sia.... if very uneasy sia...... i already sad wana cry liao keep on cant sleep & body keep on weak:(
4th is my sch thing. no friends to talk to & etc haixz i haixz dont wan talk liao no ppl seem understand me...
feel like start to keep thing between myself instead to other ppl liao..... i see wana say or not ba.

This few days pei mei mei eat walk pei her shopping i was very happy & abit sad when she abit unhappy i feel so use_ _ _ _ dont know how to an wei her :x haixz

I wish mei can take care herself & wish can pei me tgt work haixz...

Wish all my friend & sis , bro all happy ok liao......

to be continue

emo, sad T.H.

i feel so sad la....who can help me........... think no ba?

19/10/12

My body getting weaker & weaker  le I had no idea.....

Is my body fault I got take care my self dk y my body start weak since 5 week ago getting weaker & weaker le.

Very lonely Liao almost everydays no friend wana talk to me .... Now they start spilt Liao cause wana Tok to them is hard Sia..... Wana cry & sad forget it . Sch always alone no ppl . Don't feel like make friend. I already no mood Liao sad. 

Emo sad th

30/9/12

This is a first time I take neoprint with Mei I love u
Wish u can take care urself & both my Jie & Mei bday at oct im sorry that I no $ to celebrate with u all haixz.....:(
Wish Jie her wish come truth
Wish Mei get wish come truth & take care herself & wish her a super happy enjoy day for the day I pary hard for her.....

Gonna start sch soon gonna b alone with my friends again haixz sob

Take care my both Sis miss u all & di also

Xiao th

25-9-12

I'm such a useless guy see Mei Mei unhappy & sad don't know to to help her:( this yrs i totally no time management at all cause I very stress family :( i gomna giv up soon:(

My common test wish can pass I don't wana stay 6 month:(
Miss Mei ever & sis & friend

Call friend promise me help me in de end nb haixz gonna giv up

Lonely & emo & sad th

HaixZ

Why my life suk my aunt & my dad compare my bro again.... Wa Lou I feel like dieing seh fk my life fkfkfk All is about study:( I know I stupid la cnt study but I can go poly ma is already happy Liao haixz nvm ur choice to choose my fate.

Why i so stupid all the thing crash to me :( fk la wana enjoy holiday with Mei Mei de. Y end out like that haixz I miss u. Wish can with u. I'm sorry that I sometime bully u & make u angry. & is my fault that make u sad or moody. Sometime see u moody wana make u smile I dk what to do I such a suk bro . Sad sad boy boy

Wish today plan is pei Mei Mei watch movie haixz she can't watch horry   Movie haixz such a bad kor kor. But wana watch that show with Mei Mei haixz find not everyone fault is my fault & always my fault 

Sad & emo th

6-9-12

Morning call Mei then she 6 plus suddenly not well I was worry her then myself now. I can say she mine everything wana see her get well then I can don't worry le.

I was worry abt my exam & very stress I pray I can pass.

I keep on crying don't know for something that the thing well happen again 3 yrs ago from the gate of hell

:( pretty worry wish is I wan everyone stay health ok le then I can don't worry for nth le. 

The more I sleep the more I tired the less I sleep I nt well. Haixz

27_8_12 to 19_8_12

27-8-12 > Was very happy watch movie with my mei & we was very fun watching & good that she is happy. But im sad cause she nv go lesson scare she kenna debar wish no. then we go watch movie at tampines. after movie we go eat aijisan then i relise that my hp lost -.-" i dam worry what to do nv sleep haixz & thanks mei company me make a police report & etc.
I feel sorry cause kenna let her scold by her mom T.T I feel uneasy. cause is my fault that i lost my dam phone. sorry that u got a careless kor kor T.T haixz....................... but thanks mei company me.

27-8 to 28-8 > i nv sleep cause worry my phone almost de whole night nv sleep haixz.......
nvm then morning i go visit my mei then got 2 officer call me they say help me find my hp then i was happy abit they help me but i nv put any hope cause my phone hjaixz i very sad scare kenna dad scold haixz... etc dont wan say le. go d.g. eat sweensens as dinner.

today - morning wake up headache + pain. then nvm go ite on de way i heard a super good news that my hp was found ^.^ I DAM happy seh. then i collect le. i was happy. then eat dinner time dad call say 2 officer come my house ard noon say my phone found le. then furning dinner time dad call me scold me say u lost ur phone ah? & u better dont lose ur iphone hor or else i dont let u use. then i call my dad again wen walking home say i tell him a lies say i lost htc phone not iphone. haixz..... keep on lie my dad i start uneasy liao cause i scare he scold me. cause i very stress by my dad & bro haixz.... & everything....

My wish is my family having good health , Wish my jie & di good luck for everything.
Wish my mei gets well soon for her body worry her :( I wish she will b ok. miss her.


Xiao emo T.H.
crying on last mon to tue no mood. wed happy.

24/8/12

Long time nv update le quite bz.....
Exam over le now left my business diploma
Miss my Mei a lot wish she take care no matter what pray for ur healthy no matter what must stay strong nv giv up.... Dont knw what to write le my only wish is I can pass my diploma :(





Xiao th emo

Today

Today sleep a lot of time same nightmare again &again haixz forget it Liao wana find ppl to talk also can't nvm
Gonna keep it in myself in de darkness ba

Later gonna sleep again if cnt wake up mayb caught by them nightmare again ba this yrs think is de worst one

Xiao emo th

12 -8-12

I wana cry for today I really cannot handel my thing Liao exam coming no ppl wan tgt study with me plus my bro like tht nvm Liao I gonna crazy le..... Wana find ppl lend me a shoulder cry nvm leave me alone ba this few days I gotter .....

Xiao emo th
Crying

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Random

5-8-12 

Miss my Mei I see her happy when I see her profile I long time nv see her smile le wish can see her Everytime happy & with her & wish cn Everytime sleep with her I lucky let her sleep when she sleep is really cute 

7-8-12 

Unwell de me still go sch haixz wish wana die I fking stress le no ppl care me I wana cry le I almost at night crying cause worry my dear sis haixz I wish I can stead with her but nvm I super sad wana kill myself to the heart keep on nightmare till cnt sleep much :( super haixz I wish Xin rong was beside me sleep 

Miss u too much.

Random mood for today

I very sad for something no ppl seem know me well nvm I'm very my heart sometime random upsad & hurt don't knw y

I still miss u. As a bro or what. Nvm I already given up for everything I gonna giv up my life soon or after if I cnt solve my family thing. All cause of de $ dad & bro I fking tired of this Liao la.... $ here $ ther forget it u all wan chase me out or say I stupid up to u Liao I don't care le. I wish I nt born here then no trouble & stress le. Stress in de max don't wan to show ppl. U all dk wad I feel nvm I was crying sometime in my dream & having nightmare more often Liao look like nvn u all slowly figure it out I don't say much le... I think I had no time to write le ba or don't feel like writing le

Emoing th night crying 

9-7-12

Today is my suk day every thing nv do well & cause my Mei trouble ask her help me abt my hmw & night I cause her scare is my fault I'm sorry let u scare u had a bad kor kor nb understand u much & u got a lazy & stupid kor tht dun know how to do work & nv do his hmw sometimes cause he had no idea what he thinking this few days & wish his exam can pass but dun think so cause he had a slow bain that not working Everytime He also dun knw y his heart sometime pain for nth mayb sense something not right & his near by also. I wish that Mei pls take care urself no matter what sad or what ur life must go On. My back getting pain & more pain I only scare 1 day if I cnt walk I cnt pei u cause cannot hold ur hand cannot hug u & etc I feel like crying cause I only scare 1 day will happen. My last night dream is abt that. Then u leave me. I was quite sad & emo very upsad & heart pain I scare I lose u. I wan u always with me. I wish I can. I wan to see u everyday see u smile not sad& emoing Miss u Mei Xiao th crying for something

1-7-12

I really care a gal that I really care her much dun wan let her upsad or unhappy by someone like me . I still not understand her well & I her bad kor tht keep on let her unhappy I am SORRY Im sorry that nv trust u cause my feeling is hurt cause is something no right & is hurt hurt hurt me I just feel like nv I really wana fall a part le. God I just stay with her side no matter what. I think I myself I forever lonely but from outside I try not to show ba I dw ppl worry especially her. I wish her get well & happy days dw her have a bad thing I just wan her happy tht all I wish I can protect her no matter what but nvm wana share my prob also nvm she not gonna say out same to me. I will forever lock my feeling inside myself no matter what I dw her worry . I miss u Think I only b ur bro after all :( Xiao emo th ( crying ) again for the night for nth I just wan to b ur side